Confused 🤷♀️
I haven’t posted much lately. It’s a tough season! I had the worst burnout I’ve ever had a couple of weeks ago (and no exaggeration, the worst two days of my life!), and it’s taken a while to build back up from it. Even now, right now I’m sitting at Petone beach, taking time away, doing nothing ministry related, trying to relax and just be. I think one word to sum up the season I’m going through right now would be ‘ confused .’ Confused as to why I felt so called to all these different ministries this year, yet still burnt out so badly. Confused as to how even though I have been socializing with such amazing and lifegiving new communities and friends, I still depleted my social battery, worse than ever before. Confused about what Vocation I’m called to, when my heart was so set on Religious Life and is now so undone. And mostly just confused as to what the heck God is doing with all this confusion! I journaled this a couple of days ago (after I’d escaped to Starbucks ...