The Battle
Why is it that being on the brink of greatness is such an invitation for sudden darkness? Why is it that excitement for the future seems to steal the joy in the now? How is it that I am meant to stay grounded while dreams are set in motion? How do I make the most of now when it's so empty compared to what I know will be? When is it that I will step off this precipice and soar into new beginnings? When will the pinprick light win out against the shadows of doubt and fear? What is it that compels me to still hope when worldliness overwhelms me? Or rather Who is it? But Love Himself who meets me right here. (Poem from my prayer journal, 24th October) Have you ever made a decision which you know will lead to great things, and then all of sudden it seems like the whole universe is conspiring against you? That's been the past couple of weeks for me since I announced my plans for next year! Never have I experienced such stress, exhaustion and anxiety. Not even about the future - but ...