Be, Don't Strive! š Interior Castle - Fourth Mansions (Pt. 2) š
Chapter 2
Spiritual Sweetness vs. Spiritual Consolation
Sweetness
- Source in us, ends in God
- Like a basin filled by our own action āthe waterā¦comes from a long distance, by means of numerous conduits and through human skillā¦ā
- āā¦produced by meditation. It reaches us by way of the thoughts; and when at last, by means of our own efforts, it comes, the satisfaction which it brings to the soul fills the basin, but in doing so makes a noiseā¦ā
Consolation
- Source in God, ends in us
- Like a basin made at the source āā¦has been constructed at the very source of the water and fills without making any noiseā¦the water is flowing all time.ā
- ā..the source, which is God, and, when it is His Majestyās will and He is pleased to grant us some supernatural favour, itās coming is accompanied by the greatest peace and quietness and sweetness within ourselves."
- Water (consolation) overflows through every mansion until it canāt help but affect the body too (which is why we say consolation 'ends in us').
- Like a fire, although we canāt see the source or itās light, itās smell/smoke and heat āpenetrate the entire soul.ā
Humility
We can work to gain spiritual sweetness, but no matter how hard we try, we canāt by our own merits, achieve spiritual consolation.
Yet because it is so great, we might still desire and strive to gain consolation.
According to St Teresa, the only way to āobtain this favourā is by having humility.
āAnd the first way in which you will see if you have humility is that if you have it you will not think you merit these favours and consolations of the Lord or are likely to get them as long as you live.
āBut how,ā you will ask, āare we to gain them if we do not strive for them?ā I reply that there is no better way than that which I have described.
We shouldn't strive for consolation because:
- We should love God without expecting anything in return.āā¦the most essential thing is that we should love God without any motive of self-interestā¦true preparation for receiving these gifts is a desire to suffer and to imitate the Lord, not to receive consolations."
- Itās un-humble to think that by our āmiserable servicesā we deserve anything
- āHe knows better than we what is good for us.ā
- If the basin is built at the source, it is actually right for us to be "ā¦labouring in vain; for this water does not flow through conduits, as the other does, and so we gain nothing by fatiguing ourselves if it cannot be had at the source.ā
- No matter how hard we try we canāt squeeze a single drop of water out ourselves! "It is given only to those whom God wills to give it and often when the soul is not thinking of it at all."
My Thoughts
Again very timely š
St Teresaās question regarding consolation rings true with me;
āBut how are we to gain them if we do not strive for them?ā
Iām in a season of learning to wait well.
After Hearts Aflame this January, I was quite set on visiting the MGLās in Australia, and then all going well, moving there to join them next year! I had my purpose, I had something to aim for, and I was pretty certain of what God was calling me to do with my life.
Then something happened (which Iām sure will eventually come up in another blog post!) that took away that certainty.
I feel that God is asking me to simply be. To wait. To trust He knows what He is doing, this season has a purpose, and that He is doing something even if I canāt see what right now.
OK, thatās all well and good, but what now? What do I do? How do I live? Sure God is doing something, but what? How do I wait well, how do I make the most of this season of life when Iām not even sure what Iām moving towards anymore? How can I be moving towards what the Lord is asking of me when He isnāt even revealing what it is He wants of me?
How am I to gain clarity about my future if I am simply to trust and not strive for it?
Just as St Teresa wrote; āBut how are we to gain them if we do not strive for them?ā
How? According to St Teresa, by simply being humble. By loving the Lord simply because He is good, and not expecting anything or any answers in return. By trusting that He knows me better than I know myself, and He knows what is best for me. To not strive, to not exhaust myself looking for answers or doing all I can to try and āsqueezeā them out of Him. But to simply sit in the source, allowing Him to fill me up, at His own pace, in His own perfect timing.
Meanwhile, I can just live.
Iāve been discovering the blessings in simply being, and not striving for anything. The simplicity that surrender brings. As Fr Don Dolindoās Surrender Novena mentions, itās like being a child again, relying on your parents for everything and not having a care in the world because you know that they will provide. Itās like resting securely in the Fatherās arms, completely at peace. Itās seeing the blessings and wonders each day brings because your mind isnāt cluttered with worries and anxieties about the future.
āBut how are we to gainā¦if we do not strive?ā With humility and surrender.
Sometimes, when I don't know how to express myself or what is going on in my head and my heart, I sing it out instead.
Here's my heart's current cry (you'll have to just imagine I'm singing it!):
How can I be when I don't know what You want me to do?How can I follow when I don't know where you go?How can I live, how can I love rightly,When I don't know, when I can't see where You're calling me to be.How can I move when I don't know what I'm stepping toward?How can I live when I don't know what I'm living for?How can I live, how can I love rightly,When I don't know, when I can't see where You're calling me to be.You say: Be, don't strive.Just live, don't try to understand why.My arms are open wide,Surrender all,Trust that I know why.I'll step out in faith,I'll walk on the unknown of the waves.Though I can't see my destination,I trust you know the way.
St Teresa ends this chapter with a beautiful prayer:
āWe are Hisā¦may He do with us as He will and lead us along whatever way He pleases. I am sure that if any of us achieve true humility and detachmentā¦the Lord will not fail to grant us this favour, and many others which we shall not even know how to desire. May He be for ever praised and blessed. Amenā
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